Posted on Leave a comment

Give Me a Break!

I’m having a difficult time. I’ve been down every alley, back road, and all along the roads of struggle this year. I’ve been through the ringer and faced a lot of hardships. I keep thinking if I just get over this _______ {fill in the blank} then it will get easier. I’m not doing something right it seems because one problem seems to lead to another then five more and I am exhausted. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired {and broke}. I’m over life being hard. I don’t want to be the strong one. I don’t want to be the resilient one. I don’t want to be the bigger person. I want to be happy. I want to enjoy life, not just suffer through it.

I’m here. I’m giving it my best shot, but I’m falling short time and time again. Where are the good parts? I must be missing them because the bad is overshadowing everything in my life. I am a crisis away {or a minor setback away} from losing my mind, my faith, and my ability to keep this train on the tracks. I’m doing my best {I think} but it’s not good enough to change the trajectory of my life. I just need some good {or a little not as bad} to happen in our lives. I need a break. I need a vacation from my problems. I need it to be someone else who manages and coordinates the crises and the chaos for a while. I’m ready to resign.

Here it comes {the pep talk} the real talk run down of how I’m going to push past my pity party and proceed with positivity. In true PPP fashion I’ve got to find a way to be happy where I’m at now instead of waiting for something to make me happier. As the quote says “You can’t wait until life isn’t hard anymore before you decide to be happy.” It is so easy to get wrapped up the problems and the endless to do lists that I let the good times go by without even giving them the acknowledgment of their existence. I am constantly waiting on edge for the next bad thing to happen bracing for the impact that I’ve stopped recognizing the positivity that surrounds me. I have to stop bitching about everything that is wrong and being grateful for all that is going right. It’s never going to be perfect and it’s time I change my perspective on what is going to make me happy. I’ve got to try something different, because this isn’t helping me or anyone else.

Plan of Action:

It’s November and it’s marking the beginning of the season when we all become a little more grateful for our everyday blessings. This seems like the perfect opportunity to change my current perspective on life. So how do I do that? I’m not sure either.

    • Daily Goals
    • Weekly Goals
    • Monthly Goals
    • Start a gratitude journal to write three things I am grateful for each day.
    • Don’t assume the worst {tough one!}
    • Think rationally and logically
    • Look for the bright side and flip the bad and think of the good that is surrounding the current situation.
    • Spend quality time with my threefold.
    • Spend quality time with the PPP {without kids}
    • Spend quality time with the family.
    • Spend quality time with myself.
    • Meditate three times per day. Morning, afternoon and night.
    • Manifest the good by scripting and using visualization daily.

My hope is that by becoming more mindful of the good and changing my thinking that I can appreciate the good that is already in my life. I am confident that if I redirect my behaviors and tendencies to automatically catastrophize my current obstacles and create a new positive perspective I will find my happy even amongst the hard. I won’t be perfect but I’m competing against myself, so I’m positive that this plan is much better than totally winging it. What do you do to help improve your positivity and improve your outlook on life amidst the hard times? I am open to suggestions! ☮️❤️😊

Leave a Reply